My Letter To Jon......

Dear Jon,

I've spent so many nights..thinking about what I'd say to you. Wondering if you would even care. You don't know who I am..and I really don't know you. But there's this feeling inside of me that just wont let me go. It scares the hell out of me because sometimes..I think I really am going crazy.

I miss you when you don't tweet...and I get worried about you. Silly huh? I never meant for this to become what it has for me. I never thought that my admiration for you would grow into this....I know without one question or doubt that I'm in love with you. Its because of that...I want to know you..I want to be there for you. There is a quote that I've read so many times.."If you can't get someone out of your head..then maybe..they are supossed to be there." I wish this wasn't true..but for me I feel like it is. There is a reason that God sent me to this twitter thing..and well..it was you.

If you really were to read this I'm sure you'd not be pleased at the thought that someone could love you without even knowing you. This is why it scares me..I'm afraid that I will let this go so far..that I'll compare every man I ever meet to you..and if they don't measure up..I won't give them a chance. I don't wanna live like that.

Jon my only wish is that someday I'll be able to meet you..and maybe kindle a special friendship..(sure there are lots of people who'd want the same thing) but I believe there is something here..you don't see it..hell i'm not sure if I see it..but I know God has a reason for this.

So, with no expectations...no high hopes..I write this because it's more than just some "Fan Letter". These are my true feelings..this is what my heart is telling me to say. Jon, sometimes we can't help what our heart feels..believe me..I didnt want to fall in love with you..I only wanted to admire and respect you..but to me..as silly as this is..I feel like loving you this way...is disrespecting you.

Never would I ever want you to be angry with me or think that I'm just some crazy girl from kentucky that likes NKOTB. So as I end this.....


Jon I love you, I admire you..I do respect you...and if that's wrong..then they can take my heart..and throw it away because it won't be worth feeling it beat ever again.


Love,

Shanna