Love Found A Place...

Well..out of the blue...I got sweet DM from Jon. I went a little nuts at first LOL But after I called Jen...I called my friend carolyn and I broke completly down into tears. Why? I don't know...however they weren't sad tears thats for sure! I just emotional because I didnt know how or why he DM'd me. It made me happy but it scared a little too! Don't ask..just did. Anyway, I had a hard time sleeping at first because the adreniline rush was so bad..but when sleep finally found me...this is what I dreamed. You will see how my crazy mind seems to dream up this crazy stuff when you read this! LOL!!


So the dream started on twitter (go figure) Like reality, I got a DM from Jon. But the DM said something I didn't expect to see. So this is how the DM convo started funny, sweet..and well..nuts! HAHAHA!!

JonathanRKnight: Shanna, I like you. ;)
@JonathanRKnight Jon, I love you.
JonathanRKnight: Well I can't say that back..yet, but I'm intrested I want to get to know you somehow.
@JonathanRKnight: Well I don't know how.
JonathanRKnight: Well, how about this..I dont want this going all public would it be ok if I had your number? Tweet me yes or no.
@JonathanRKnight (Ok I had to do this) I just called to say I love you..and I mean it from the bottom of my heart ;-)
JonathanRKnight: LOL I take it that means yes...ok but how am I gonna get your number w/o going public on this thing?
@JonathanRKnight Follow me...to the place where homes are built (wink)Go to HOME DEPOT Jon..build something! LOL
JonathanRKnight: Huh?
@JonathanRKnight Hey I heard HOME DEPOT is a great one to follow! Check them out!

This is funny, I created a fake homedepot account on twitter. So after a few mins he figured out what I had done.

JonathanRKnight: LMAO! Good one! Everyone knows I'd follow home depot noone will suspect a thing!

So he followed my fake account so we could DM for bit. I gave him my number and it wasnt long before he called. We talked...I was nervous but yet I felt at ease so quickly before I knew it the shakiness in my voice went away, and I was talking to him like I'd been talking to him like that all my life. Like just two friends shooting the bullshit.
He asked me if I wanted him to send me tickets to one of the NK shows but I told him no. I wanted the thrill of purchasing them myself since I had worked so hard and saved to do that. But I did take him up on his offer for passes for me and a few of my friends.

So, at last it came for me to finally meet him..face to face. (Some of this is blurry..it went kinda fast..but it ends great) I went to a meet n greet w/Jen, Tamz, Lori and Tirzah (of course we had our road trip!!!) I greeted him..got autographs like everyone else..except..Since Jon had given me passes..when the concert ended I followed the instructions he'd given me. Me and the girls met all the guys hung out for a while, but I was the last one to leave. Jen, Tamz, Tirzah and Lori left and went back to the hotel. I stayed behind with Jon. Dub, Danny, Joe, and Jordan retired to their hotels as well.

Jon and I stayed behind together. Talking..laughing..and sipping coffee. Before I knew it was 4am.

Jon:Shanna it's getting really late..I suppose we should call it a night huh?
Me:Well..I guess you're right, but I sure don't wanna go.
Jon:I'm so glad that I finally got the courage to find out more about you. I'm glad we've met. What do you think is going to happen?
Me:Jon, honestly I have no idea but wherever this road leads us..we're sure to find our destination together..as lovers..as friends..I don't know..all I do know is that I'm in love with you..I always have been, but now there is no doubt no questions, only the certainty that I've found the perfect partner in crime (I laughed)

Jon: (Laughing) See I knew I liked you for some reason..you have become a wise ass!
Me: Hey I learned from the best..jacko..LOL

(Ok so this is the part that had me waking up in tears)

We decided it was time to go..Jon hugged me tightly and I returned the gesture. He pulled away and took both my hands in his..and said "Shanna, I wanna make a promise to you..I promise that I'll always be here for you. Even if I'm miles away..gone for long periods of time with the band..Ive found something in you that I've never found in anyone else, and no matter how far we are away from each other, I've got you here (points to head) and I've got you here (points to heart)

A single tear fell down my cheek. He reached over and wiped it away. He told me to close my eyes..So I stood there eyes closed not knowing what the hell he was doing. I felt him grab my hand and I felt something slip onto my finger. "Open your eyes...I am giving you this..as a symbol of this promise I just made to you..wear it..take care of it..cherish it..and maybe one day..I can replace it with something even more special" he said.

Jon Knight put a promise ring on my finger. It was a diamond band engraved on the inside JRK/SMB. I could hardly compose myself at this point because this something never in my life had ANY man done for me. I knew at the moment that what Jon had said was completely true. He may not love me now...but he planned on loving me later.

Not saying one word because sometimes...you have to let your heart speak instead of your voice. I wrapped my arms around him. Drew my lips to his..and kissed him softly..I pulled away..said goodnight...and I said "Jonathan Knight...you always saved me..you did save me..and now I can look at this..and know that you will always...save me."


I woke up in tears..smiles..goofy I know, but its amazing. I have no idea what I said or did to get that DM. I wish I could figure it out. The first time i replied something goofy and stupid, but this time I am clueless! I now wear a necklace around my neck that says :Jonathan Knight:Frienship:Love:Admiration It falls just at hearts length..so when I need a little boost I can look down at it see his name and know that I'm gonna be ok. You've heard all this shit before..I know but it was uplifting for me to know that maybe for no certain reason he decided to say hello..I'm ok with that.

In honestly I'm not certain if in reality Jon and I could be lovers, but I do think we could be friends and well..lovers come..lovers go..and true friend would last forever..and I think that Jon and I would be true friends.

Ok I'm done LOL