It was a cold and dreary kentucky day. My heart was full of excitement but yet I felt an overwhelming saddness inside. NKOTB had finally decided to come here. It was the day of the concert. I decided to drive downtown to the venue and take a look around. Alone I walked into the venue it was completely silent no one there at all. I went through a double door into the arena. I stood there looked all around me...right in front of me I saw a single spotlight on..and a piano.

I walked up the steps to the stage..looked out at the empty arena and wondered what it would feel like to look out and see thousands of smiling faces and hearing screams of laughter and joy. Taking a good look around to make sure I was'nt being watched I made my way over to the piano. I sat down on the bench..taking a deep breath...I started to play. To my amazment the microphone and the piano were both hooked up and turned on. I stopped and thought "What if I get caught?" But something inside of me told me to keep playing.

I starting playing "adele to make you feel my love" the song that my friend Tirzah had found for me. It always reminds of him when I hear it. It's the song that I had decided I would sing for him at the meet and greet that night. (Imagine the intro of the song being played) With a deep sigh..I began to sing. "When the rain is blowing in your face..." I sang softly. Tears welled up my eyes. I got about halfway through the song when I had to stop. The emotion was just too overwhelming. I sat there my hands over my face to hide the tears...rocking back and forth just thinking about how much I love him. I thought "Will he ever really know? If he did...would he ever care?" I sat there for what seemed like forever. Suddenly, I felt a hand upon my shoulder.

I was scared to pull my hands away from my face I didnt want whoever it was to see my tears. I turned around...wiping the tears away so I could see. It was Jon. My heart stopped. "What are you doing in here? Who are you?" he asked. Becoming even more emotional I replied "Oh..I'm so sorry mr knight I know I should'nt be here...I'll go." "No,you don't have to. Was that you playing and singing?" he asked Embarrassed and blushing, "Yes Jon...it was." He smiled a sweet smile..a single tear fell from my eyes..he reached over and wiped it away. "What's your name?" he asked. "Its Shanna Jon.." I replied. He got this look on his face almost like he was surprised to hear that. "Shanna? As in ShannaSings4Jon on twitter?" he asked. I giggled "Yes..thats right...the one who sends you all those mushy poems" He grinned and proceed to sit down on the bench beside me. "So you sing just for me? Well, play something and sing for me then!" he said

So, I began playing the song again only this time...I was able to look straight into his eyes while singing it. He never turned his gaze away from my eyes. By the end of the song my eyes had welled up with tears once again...I covered my face again. He put his arms around me and said "I know you love me...and I love you too." I pulled my hands away from my face, and looked over at him only to find that his eyes were filled with tears. I reached up and gently wiped his cheek. I took both hands and caressed his face. We sat like that for what seemed like hours..not saying one word. The only thing I could hear was my own heartbeat.

"Shanna..that was beautiful." he said "Jon, when I said I sing for you...I meant it." I said. We sat there and just held each other and cried. He pulled away and caressed my cheek with his hand. "Shanna would you like a personal tour? Maybe meet the guys? Maybe we can get some coffee too..and talk for a while." he asked. "Sure..I'd love that!" I said with a big smile. So, we got up and he took me by the hand griping it tightly. He led me behind the curtain to a staircase..which led to where the dressing rooms are and such. He took me a game room they had set up for the guys..tv's pooltables...stuff like that. "Hey guys, I have someone I want you to meet." he said Jordan was sitting on the couch listening to his ipod, Danny was strumming his guitar and humming...Joe was on the phone with his wife..and D was on the computer (guess what he was doing!) They all turned around. I wanted to turn and run! "Guys this is Shanna I found her upstairs on the stage playing the piano and singing." he said I blushed "Yes I was and I'm sorry I should not have snuck in here like that...but none the less..I'm amazed by this moment"

D came up and offered me a huge hug.."Hi Shanna, its great to meet you! Its ok that you snuck in. We don't mind." he said. "Thanks D...I love you all so much and I just want to say thank you for coming back into my life." "Boys...I feel a hug fest coming on!" D, said. I was swarmed by the guys with hugs and kisses. Danny picked me up and swung me around. "Ok ok guys..enough." Jon said with a giggle. I got to hug each one of them..they signed my CD that I carried in my purse at all times. Jon and I left and headed down another set of stairs to a break room. WOW he had his OWN starbucks vendor right there! I had to laugh..as I thought "Jon and his iced mochas!" "So I hope ya like Starbucks...what flavor would ya like?" he asked. "I'll take a white chocolate mocha please." I said with a grin. After we got our coffees we sat down on little couch that was set up. We talked for a while...sipping coffee and finding out more about each other. He asked me the usual questions. "Are you single? Kids? ect"

After a few hours of conversation..it was time for to leave and go get ready for the concert. "Jon..I've got to go..but I'll be in the first row..cheering you on!" I said. "Oh you got a five star huh! Thats great!" he said. He stood me up and gave me the biggest hug..and then..he gave me a sweet gentle kiss goodbye. He led me back up to the area door and said. "I hope you enjoy the show tonight, would it be ok if we kept in touch?" "Of course, I'd love that Jon." I said. We exchanged numbers and one last embrace..and I left to go home to get ready.

So needless to say...this story ends on a bittersweet note. Jon and I finally got the chance to meet each other. I got to sing for him..and I was about to embark on a journey that I never thought I'd see. We talked on the phone wrote letters...sent cards..and made plans to see each other in Boston. He even told his family about me! This love was real...I had always known that.

Hope you enjoyed this little story..

Love always,
Shanna