Ok so I feel asleep trying to get warm. I usually don't take naps unless I'm sick. I'm thinking now I may have had a fever or something. I figured I'd have sweet dreams last night after the x-mas back rub, but you can't dream if you dont sleep. I tossed and turned all damn night. Anyway, this is the strange little dream I had when I took my little nap.

I was in a house. One that looked familiar, yet strange to me. There was a knock at the front door. My dad (who is deceased) went to the door and answered it. "Hey! C'mon in man!" he said. I was in the back room with my daughter playing with the karaoke machine. My daughter was singing "Cover Girl" LOL It was cute! My dad called out for me to come into the living room. "Shanna, you need to come here. There is someone I want you to meet." "Ok Dad, I'm coming" I said I walked down the hallway and about halfway down I stopped in my tracks and couldn't move.

There standing my living room dressed in a black sweater, jeans, dress shoes, and sunglasses was...Jon Knight. "Shanna..C'mon!" my dad yelled. I mustered up enough courage to make into the living room. Knees knocking..heart pounding..I managed to crack a smile, but the look of surprise on my face was still evident. My dad was laughing hysterically (yes my dad would if were alive and could see me now! LOL) Jon extended his hand out for shake and said. "Hi, I'm Jon." With my voice shaking "Hi Jon, yes I know who you are." I grinned. "Hey what a pretty bracelet you have on." he said (not realizing I had on the Jon bracelet that Jen had made for me) "Huh? Oh!" I laughed. So I pulled the bracelet off and explained to him what every charm meant. And that a very dear friend and BH sister had made it just for me.

"Ok Jon, the green beads stand for your fav color, the blue beads are my fav color, the horse charm symbolizes your love for horses and my desire to run wild and free. The music note symbolizes that you are a musician, and for me its because I love to sing. The keys..(ok I got a little nervous to explain this one LOL) the keys repesent that you "secretly" have the keys to my heart." "Wow! That's really a sweet thing!" he said. "Yes she made it for me so that I'd always have you near me." I said blushing. He reached out and gave me a big o'l hug! He asked me if I wear it everyday I told him that I never took it off. He giggled.

So he and my dad sat down on the couch and started chit chatting. I asked dad to come and see me in back room for min. I asked dad "How do you know Jon dad? I mean, this is so strange!" "Shanna I did a maintainence job on one of his houses a while back..we hit it off and been friends ever since." (Note: My dad was a repair and maintainence man for a homeless shelter for 15 yrs) "Dad how come you never told me this?" I asked "Shanna I wanted to wait for the right time, I needed to know how you truly felt about him. And over the past few months I've seen how much he means to you. So, I thought he could come and spend some time here and get to know you." I started to cry. "Dad..thank you!" I said. "Ok wipe them silly ass tears out your eyes and get in there and charm the hell outta that man ok!" my dad said. I hugged my dad. (Note: This is strange to me since my daddy has been gone for 3 yrs now but IF this really had happened he would've done this to me just to see me embarrassed as hell!)

So the rest of the dream me, Jon, my dad, my daughter, and my mom, spent the whole rest of that night just talking. I sat next to Jon on the couch with his arm around me the whole time. I was in true heaven. (I had to be because the ppl that meant the most to me were right there..everyone one of them angels ;-) ) My daughter leaned over and whispered something in Jon's ear. I shot her a look. (Oh lord what is she saying) I thought. Jon leaned over and kissed me on the cheek and whispered in my ear. "I love you too." I cuddled closer to him and could feel his heart beating very fast. We snuggled tight like that..Then I woke up!

This dream was strange to me because I have not dreamt about my dad for a long time. It was very bittersweet. I had tears in my eyes when I woke up. Ok so..Enjoy reading this weird dream. LOL

It was a cold and dreary kentucky day. My heart was full of excitement but yet I felt an overwhelming saddness inside. NKOTB had finally decided to come here. It was the day of the concert. I decided to drive downtown to the venue and take a look around. Alone I walked into the venue it was completely silent no one there at all. I went through a double door into the arena. I stood there looked all around me...right in front of me I saw a single spotlight on..and a piano.

I walked up the steps to the stage..looked out at the empty arena and wondered what it would feel like to look out and see thousands of smiling faces and hearing screams of laughter and joy. Taking a good look around to make sure I was'nt being watched I made my way over to the piano. I sat down on the bench..taking a deep breath...I started to play. To my amazment the microphone and the piano were both hooked up and turned on. I stopped and thought "What if I get caught?" But something inside of me told me to keep playing.

I starting playing "adele to make you feel my love" the song that my friend Tirzah had found for me. It always reminds of him when I hear it. It's the song that I had decided I would sing for him at the meet and greet that night. (Imagine the intro of the song being played) With a deep sigh..I began to sing. "When the rain is blowing in your face..." I sang softly. Tears welled up my eyes. I got about halfway through the song when I had to stop. The emotion was just too overwhelming. I sat there my hands over my face to hide the tears...rocking back and forth just thinking about how much I love him. I thought "Will he ever really know? If he did...would he ever care?" I sat there for what seemed like forever. Suddenly, I felt a hand upon my shoulder.

I was scared to pull my hands away from my face I didnt want whoever it was to see my tears. I turned around...wiping the tears away so I could see. It was Jon. My heart stopped. "What are you doing in here? Who are you?" he asked. Becoming even more emotional I replied "Oh..I'm so sorry mr knight I know I should'nt be here...I'll go." "No,you don't have to. Was that you playing and singing?" he asked Embarrassed and blushing, "Yes Jon...it was." He smiled a sweet smile..a single tear fell from my eyes..he reached over and wiped it away. "What's your name?" he asked. "Its Shanna Jon.." I replied. He got this look on his face almost like he was surprised to hear that. "Shanna? As in ShannaSings4Jon on twitter?" he asked. I giggled "Yes..thats right...the one who sends you all those mushy poems" He grinned and proceed to sit down on the bench beside me. "So you sing just for me? Well, play something and sing for me then!" he said

So, I began playing the song again only this time...I was able to look straight into his eyes while singing it. He never turned his gaze away from my eyes. By the end of the song my eyes had welled up with tears once again...I covered my face again. He put his arms around me and said "I know you love me...and I love you too." I pulled my hands away from my face, and looked over at him only to find that his eyes were filled with tears. I reached up and gently wiped his cheek. I took both hands and caressed his face. We sat like that for what seemed like hours..not saying one word. The only thing I could hear was my own heartbeat.

"Shanna..that was beautiful." he said "Jon, when I said I sing for you...I meant it." I said. We sat there and just held each other and cried. He pulled away and caressed my cheek with his hand. "Shanna would you like a personal tour? Maybe meet the guys? Maybe we can get some coffee too..and talk for a while." he asked. "Sure..I'd love that!" I said with a big smile. So, we got up and he took me by the hand griping it tightly. He led me behind the curtain to a staircase..which led to where the dressing rooms are and such. He took me a game room they had set up for the guys..tv's pooltables...stuff like that. "Hey guys, I have someone I want you to meet." he said Jordan was sitting on the couch listening to his ipod, Danny was strumming his guitar and humming...Joe was on the phone with his wife..and D was on the computer (guess what he was doing!) They all turned around. I wanted to turn and run! "Guys this is Shanna I found her upstairs on the stage playing the piano and singing." he said I blushed "Yes I was and I'm sorry I should not have snuck in here like that...but none the less..I'm amazed by this moment"

D came up and offered me a huge hug.."Hi Shanna, its great to meet you! Its ok that you snuck in. We don't mind." he said. "Thanks D...I love you all so much and I just want to say thank you for coming back into my life." "Boys...I feel a hug fest coming on!" D, said. I was swarmed by the guys with hugs and kisses. Danny picked me up and swung me around. "Ok ok guys..enough." Jon said with a giggle. I got to hug each one of them..they signed my CD that I carried in my purse at all times. Jon and I left and headed down another set of stairs to a break room. WOW he had his OWN starbucks vendor right there! I had to laugh..as I thought "Jon and his iced mochas!" "So I hope ya like Starbucks...what flavor would ya like?" he asked. "I'll take a white chocolate mocha please." I said with a grin. After we got our coffees we sat down on little couch that was set up. We talked for a while...sipping coffee and finding out more about each other. He asked me the usual questions. "Are you single? Kids? ect"

After a few hours of conversation..it was time for to leave and go get ready for the concert. "Jon..I've got to go..but I'll be in the first row..cheering you on!" I said. "Oh you got a five star huh! Thats great!" he said. He stood me up and gave me the biggest hug..and then..he gave me a sweet gentle kiss goodbye. He led me back up to the area door and said. "I hope you enjoy the show tonight, would it be ok if we kept in touch?" "Of course, I'd love that Jon." I said. We exchanged numbers and one last embrace..and I left to go home to get ready.

So needless to say...this story ends on a bittersweet note. Jon and I finally got the chance to meet each other. I got to sing for him..and I was about to embark on a journey that I never thought I'd see. We talked on the phone wrote letters...sent cards..and made plans to see each other in Boston. He even told his family about me! This love was real...I had always known that.

Hope you enjoyed this little story..

Love always,
Shanna

Happy Birthday to me!

It was the eve of my 32nd birthday. I was headed to NY to see my friend Tirzah we were planning on having an awesome night out...an NKOTB concert. Since I had a golden key (wishing) I could go to any event I choose. I met up with tirz at the airport and we headed to get me checked in to a hotel. Jen was flying in later that night. We hung out for a while went to dinner and did some shopping. Before we knew it, it was 8pm time to meet Jen at the airport. We got Jen picked up and headed back to the hotel to get her all settled in.
"I've got a feeling this is going to be the best birthday!"I said. "Shanna, you have no idea" Jen giggled.
It was almost 1am and we decided it was time to sleep.."We've got a long and exciting day ahead tomorrow..sweet dreams girls!" I said. We all turned in for the night. My alarm went off at 7am. I woke up gleaming! "Happy Birthday to me!" I shouted "Wake up girls...its time to get this party started!" After we all got showered up and prettied up we headed down to the hotel restaurant for the breakfast buffet....then after breakfast..SHOPPING! I was looking for the perfect birthday outfit. Tirzah took us to some local boutiques...I finally found the right dress after trying on 100 outfits or more LOL It was a sapphire blue spahgetti strapped dress with with sequins on the straps. Simple, yet elegant. "Shanna that dress is gonna knock Jon off his feet! It brings out your eyes!" Jen said. "Yes Shanna...tonight is your night sister." Tirz said. "Aww..group hug!" I said. "I'm so glad I'm here with my girls..this is the best birthday ever!" Jen snickered "What?" I said turning to Jen. "Shanna I'm telling ya you think its great now...you just wait" she said with a fecious smile. "Umm..Ok..you're scaring me Jen " I laughed.
We piddled around for a while and then headed back to the hotel to get ready for dinner and the concert. "Meet N Greet starts at 7..concert at 9! Get a move on girls" Jen said. "Ok ok Jen..I wanna look perfect!" I said.
We went down to the hotel restaurant around 530 had an awesome dinner and a few drinks. Jen stood up and proceeded to toast me "Shanna I raise my glass tonight in honor of your birthday...our friendships...and to our 5 fav guys WOOOO! " Jen exclaimed. "Woooooo!" Tirz shouted "Double WOOOOO WOOO!" I yelled. A man shouted with laughter "Yep thats what I thought...they're blockheads!" We laughted hysterically "And PROUD of it!" we yelled!
As we came out the hotel doors I saw a limo with blue and green ribbons tied to the front and back bumpers. "Oh how cool! A limo! Must be someone famous!" I said. Tirz and Jen were laughing hysterically "What?!" I said "Shanna its YOUR limo! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!", they both shouted. "OMG girls!! This is awesome!!" "Yep, Jen said and here's your crown my queen of the K-N-I-G-H-T (placing a small tiara on my head) lets roll!"she said.
We hopped in the limo poured us some Dom Perione and hit the road to the venue. The excitement inside of me was building "I'm gonna meet Jon..and NKOTB! (a bit buzzed) " I shouted out the window of the limo!
We arrived at the venue right at 7pm. Whoa what a crowd! The guys were already mingling..there was a grand staircase we had to walk down to get to where the guys were. "Gee I hope I dont trip on these heels...how embarrasing that would be!" I said. But it made me feel like a princess...descending down the staircase in my beautiful dress..tiara on. And then...I was about halfway down..when I saw him. He looked straight up at me..and smiled. "Oh god..tirz..and jen he just looked right at me!" My heart started pounding I had to grab on to Tirz and Jen both to keep my balance my knees were knocking! We got down to the bottem I took a very deep breath and thought "Ok Shanna compose yourself..."
Jen took me by the hand and led me straight to Jon...He whipped around and said "Jen! My friend how are you?" They hugged. "Jon I want you to meet Shanna its her birthday today."she said. "Well Happy Birthday!" he said. He scooped me up and hugged me so tight I thought I'd faint from the lack of oxygen my brain was getting. LOL "Jon I'm so glad to finally meet you!" I exclaimed. "I can't thank you enough for what you've done for me" "Love you too Shanna and thank you for being a fan" he said. "Well girls I've got others to meet, but I'll see you later after the show ok!" he said. Jon walked away, turning around to give me a wink and a smile. "Wow, this seems almost like....a dream!" I said "Shanna..it gets better." Jen said. We headed over to where the rest of the guys were. I headed straight for D. "Donnie!" I yelled. He turned around and grinned that wild boy grin..."Hello ladies!" he said. We hugged and talked got autographs and mingled a bit with our BH sisters. Jen leaned over and whispered something to D. "I'll be back in a min girls"Jen said. Jen and D walked a few feet away and was talking about something. Jen and D were both smiling like crazy. Jen came back and said "Ok girls...its' showtime!" We all gave a big WOOO!! and headed in to find our seats.
The concert started...house lights dimmed. We were about 2 hours into the show. Rocking it out! D stopped the music and proceeded to speak. "Folks we have something special for you tonight." "Shanna...I need you to come up on stage." "WTF!" I said. I started shaking! Jen and tirz were crying with laughter. "Shanna I told ya...it gets better!" Jen said with a smile. A bodyguard came and lifted me up onto the stage. "Folks..D said, This is Shanna and today is her birthday. " The crowd shouted "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" I didn't know what to do or say! I just stood there! LOL The house lights dimmed..I was put on a stool by myself...with only a spotlight to see. And then I heard it....(the intro to HAPPY BIRTHDAY..you know the bells do do do do..ok) I thought OMG WTS is going on!
Jon stepped out from behind me...got down on one knee and started singing the birthday song! Then the rest of the guys chimed in...and Jordan with his falsetto "to you hooo hooo" I had tears in my eyes but I was laughing! Jon bent down and kissed me on the cheek and said "Happy Birthday Shanna" I got off the stool and D handed me the mic.."Go ahead Shanna..say whatever you feel like saying." he said. With my voice shaking "I wanna say thank you...to Donnie, Danny, Joe..Jordan..and Jon for coming back into my life and making this the best birthday of my life!" "Thank you to my girls..Tirzah and Jen for being the two best friends a girl could ever have!" "But i'm curious...(I was giggling) why on earth did you do this for me?" D took the mic back and said "Well see I got this call from Jen and Tirzah they wanted to make sure you're birthday was the best ever..so we got together and planned this out..." "You girls!!" I screamed out! So after that we were given special seating and backstage passes to hang out with the guys after the show. It was the BEST KNIGHT I could have EVER asked for!!

Ok this was all made up but....It could happen! LMAO! Hope you enjoyed my little story...see when you're a BH its amazing the things that you can write about! HAHA!!

Not a real dream..but it could happen! LOL

It was summer 2010, me and the girl were heading for our "ROAD TRIP" to Boston, Mass to see our five fav guys! I have never been so excited! Since Tamz and I both live in KY, we decided to ride together to pick up the rest of the girls. After all of our girls we're picked up...we hit the road. Tirzah pulled out our little playlist...........and got the party started right! Singing, laughing...it was a great time..but I had NO IDEA what I was in for.

We arrived at Boston a day or so later (not sure how long it really takes)LOL and we headed straight to our hotel..got checked in and cleaned up...and headed to dinner. We spent that first night...like a group of girls at a slumber party..drinking...dancing..pillowfighting...ect. It was a BLAST! NKOTB had brought back our youth...and there was so much more coming our way!

The next day I woke up with butterflies in my stomach...nervous and shaky all over! Tirz asked me" Whats wrong Shanna?".."Tirz..I'm hella scared to meet them..I'm scared to meed HIM!." She giggled "Shanna, if you can tweet Joe Mac that you are being penetrated by Dub..then you can do this!" I blushed, as I remembered I had done that! HAHA!!

We went about our day...had breakfast...took a swim in the hotel pool...then the time came for us to get prettied up for the guys. "So, Shanna what you planning on wearing?" asked Tamz "Should I go slutty, or sweet?"I asked. "Ha, Shanna, go for sweet...w/some slutty on the side!" We all cracked the hell up! Tamz, Tirzah, Jen, and I headed downstairs to await the arrival or our limo (hehe cuz we don't drink and drive) It's TIME!!

We arrived at the venue around 630, the concert was set to start at 8pm. We hung out just checking out the place..and talking to fellow blockhead sisters..It was amazing! So many!!

We enterned the main hall of the venue and proceeded to find our seats (1st row 5*)

"Oh..this is so crazy! I can't BELIEVE I'm here!!" I said. "Well Shanna, BELIEVE IT because the time has arrrrivvved" sang Tirzah. I laughed..but on the inside...I was overcome with excitement...nervousness..every emotion you can think of! We sat down...and waited for it to begin.

The house lights went dim...the music started (I'm getting chills) a voice rang out "If you came here by yourself...tonight..." I looked over at my girls and smiled..the tears were already starting to flow..."Girls...This is my greatest dream come true..I'm here with you...and finally getting to see NKOTB..what more could I ever ask for!", I said. All went quiet for only a moment....the music stopped...and then....rising out of the stage floor...one by one..Donnie..Danny..Joe...Jordan...and Jon...."Pretty mama if you're single...." The screams began! It was so loud I couldn't hear my own thoughts!!

The concert so far was more than I had EVER dreamed of! We were rocking it out...singing..dancing..and screaming! WOOOOOO!!!! There was a pause in the music..while Dub talked...he wanted to say how much he loved us..and thank us for always standing by NKOTB...he made us laugh...cry...all at the same time!.

He was giving love to all the girls in the front row...and then...he locked eyes...right at me!! He walked over to where I was and said.."I know you...you're Shanna." OMG OMG OMG!! I tried to calmly reply.."Yes D, I'm Shanna." He stopped for a moment and turned to Jon and said "Jon, you need to come here for a minute...you need to see what's on Shannas' shirt." OMG..NO HE DIDNT!! Jon walked over and bent down towards me...(MY SHIRT SAID "Shanna Sings For Jon" on the front and "JONS CANARYCRACK" on the back! LMAO! "Oh really...you sing for me?" he said. "Umm...yes...YES I DO!!" I exclaimed! I was freaked!! "Shanna, I think your dream to sing for Jon is about to come true" Tirzah said with a giggle. "Umm..OMG Tirz...NO WAY!!" I shouted! Dub pulled me up on stage and said.."Ok folks..we have a lady here who says she sings for our boy Jon..how about we give her that chance tonight?!" They took Jon and put in on a stool w/nothing but a spotlight on him...the house lights went down...and the crowd went silent. I thought to myself "Is this freaking FO REAL!" "Ok Shanna, this is your chance to show Jon what he means to you...do it up right." So, with my heart beating out of my chest...and shivers all over...I took Jon's hand in mine....I opened my mouth...and....I began to sing "To make you feel my love." "I know you haven't made your mind up yet...But Jon...I would never do you wrong.." I sang He smiled at me...never turning his gaze away from my eyes. HE KNEW I meant every lyric.

After the last lyric was over....the tears feel so hard...I couldn't speak. "Shanna, he said, That was wonderful...no one has ever done that for me before." "Thank you...(whispers in my ear) I'll be seeing you backstage. The crowd clapped and screamed...I was RED!! But, my dream of singing for Jon had came true! I was able to do it..when I thought I couldn't! (See Love Conquers All!)

So, I'll end this little story....I went back stage...we all got our Meet N Greet with the guys..but I left Boston with something no one else left with...When I left...Jon's heart came with me. LOL He gave it up willingly of course...I didn't force him at all LMAO!! I PROMISE! (Ok so I had to tie a rope around his cute ass) LOL Ok nevermind that..this is a fictional story...but...nothing is impossible!

Ok so, I've had many a dream about Mr Jon Knight but this is one I remember VERY vividly. I don't usually tell ppl about the naughty ones LOL But, here ya go!

It was summer,and I was finally on an NKOTB cruise! (I'm skipping the boring stuff) So, I had woke up that morning gotten dressed and went down to the lounge for some coffee. I decided because it was so beautiful I wanted to just stare at the ocean for a while and soak in all of the wonderful things happening around me. The night before I had met NKOTB and finally got to hug my Jon...I sighed as I stared into the crystal clear waters and thought "How could this be so much like heaven?" "Is this real?" I giggled to myself as I thought about how many times I had dreamed of this. "Shanna, you are a true mush head", I thought to myself. I was standing there just staring out over the side of the ship the wind was blowing in my hair and I felt peaceful. Just when I thought it could'nt get any better....I heard a voice.

"Hello Shanna.." he said. I turned around and could not believe my eyes. It was Jon. With his hair slicked back and his sunglasses on..and that smile! My heart started pounding! "Wow, Jon", I said. "You remember my name?" "Oh yes, he said in that soft voice, "and I think you're beautiful." OMG is all I could think..I could'nt say anything! He totally made me melt! (ok so far this is really romantic like but it gets better..trust me) LOL

We engadged in some good conversation and discussed the upcoming tour. I told him how much I loved him..and about how he saved my heart. "Shanna..Can I ask you something?", he said. "Yes..Jon anything."I replied. "If I took you by the hand, and led you up to my room would you stay the night with me?" "I'm tired of being alone every night." OMG at this point my heart had stopped beating...I didn't know how to answer that question. "Jon...I'll go with you for a while...but please don't expect anything ok. God knows I love you more than life itself, but I can't stay the night with you." I said. (by this time I'm thinking to myself WTS?!)

So he took me by the hand and led me down a secret corridor that the guys use to get to their rooms w/o people seeing them. We went in.....and this is what happened. He asked if we could lay on the bed and just hold each other. Of course I did it! I'd never pass up a chance to hold him in my arms! (Smiles) We layed there for what seemed like forever...talking...stroking each others hair..and then...when the moment seemed right...he kissed me.

Chills went through me..from head to toe. He was a bit soft at first..but the longer we kissed the more forceful he got. My heart was pounding..I started to sweat! I pushed him away for a moment..and thought...is this REALLY happening..am I really here..kissing Jon...OMG! My heart was saying one thing but my body was saying something else. My conscience was getting the best of me..it felt so right but so wrong at the same time. So, I decided to I needed to leave. "Jon..I love you so very much, but I just can't do this."I said. "Shanna..he said...I love you too." It was at that moment...when he said those three words...I changed my mind and stayed.

I pushed him back down on the bed and layed my body on top of his. Kissing his neck..nibbling his ears...I decided at this point I was gonna make love to him so good...he'd NEVER forget me. LOL I became forcefull with my kisses...and grinded my body harder against his. I could FEEL him becoming more excited. He turned me over...and started shredding my clothes off..like a wild banshee or something! OMG this made me nuts! "Jon, I said...this is gonna be a KNIGHT we'll both remember.." He kissed me ALL over...from my forehead to my toes...my body was writhing in anticipation of what was about to happen. Then..he parted my legs and layed his hard strong body on mine..and entered the land of Shanna. LMAO!

Bumping and Grinding...we went...hours...it seemed...I've never orgasmed so much in my life! The feeling of our bodies grinding hard and fast...WHOA..! (I could be XXX but I don't think I should..this is a blog ya know) LOL He moaned so softly..I could feel his body shaking all over...he was about to blow! (Im laughing my ass off as I write this cuz Jon just tweeted OMG!) Anyway, just when I thought it could'nt be any better...he said "Dont ya know that the time has arrived!!"..and with that...it was over. Sweaty and out of breath we layed there together...staring at each other. "Jon...thanks to you...everytime i hear Step by Step I'm gonna think of this night" I giggled. He looked me deep in the eyes and said. "Shanna..this isn't over...I'm taking you with me." I smiled "Oh really...How is that?" I asked. "Shanna..you are in my heart...and now my soul...I love you..and I'm never gonna let you go." The tears filled my eyes..."Jon...I've waited forever to hear that." I said

And I'll be damned...my alarm went off...and the dream was over! Ok so this wasn't so dirty..I'm a freak a leek when I wanna be...but when it comes to Jon...my romantic and passionate side comes out...no matter what I'm dreaming about.
Hope you enjoyed my night with Jon HAHAHA!